Senior Year Part One Reflection

I’m now halfway through my senior year, with one more semester to get through before entering the real world and paying off student loans until I’m 40.

Really though, this past semester challenged me in many ways, and I’m definitely a different person coming out on the other side. I feel like this semester was a journey in itself, the first half of an adventure that will come to a close at my college graduation on the other side of this year.

I am a completely different person than I was when I came to Drake as an 18-year-old, unsure and nervous but ready to take on whatever I could. And now, I am facing the last leg of my college experience, these last few months before transitioning into a new chapter, where I hope life is a lot like what these last few months have been: challenging but rewarding, busy but with plenty of peaceful times.

So, a recap of this last semester:

  • I started this semester disassociated from my sorority to be a recruitment counselor, which was one of my favorite experiences at Drake.
  • My boyfriend and I celebrated 5 (!!) years of being together. We’ve grown a million times stronger these last few years, and it only gets better.
  • I learned more about my strengths and weaknesses, and that a huge part of my weakness stems from how I think about myself–which isn’t great a lot of times. I realized how much confidence I had lost in my ability as a writer, a worker and my intelligence. I’ve been working on catching this more and I’m starting to realize how much I’ve been holding myself back because of this.
  • I completed my senior capstone, which changed me so much as a writer and reporter, and helped me find something else I want to do–radio/podcasts.
  • Through capstone, I worked on a podcast with another classmate, who was a stranger at first but quickly became a friend, and it helped me get out of my comfort zone and meet some pretty amazing people.
  • I learned that I need to be more bold, that I need to speak my mind more and that I can’t make everyone like me, even if I try really hard. Sometimes I get so stuck within myself that it’s hard for my true self to come through (which a lot of is due to anxiety, I think) but starting to learn this about myself has helped me ask myself why I feel like I can’t really ever relax around people.
  • There were definitely times where I was really down, and where I felt like I was losing my mind, but I managed to come out on the other side stronger, thanks to better coping skills.
  • I’ve learned how to be a better friend, and the kind of person I want to be.
  • I’m going full steam ahead with my literal lifelong dream of being an author and finally letting other people read my work. I’m trying not to be embarrassed about still playing pretend with my writing as an adult.
  • This semester was one of the wildest, most fun I’ve ever had.
  • I’m starting to truly get excited about my next phase in life. The world feels so open, which is pretty cool.

At the end of this semester, one word to describe how I feel would be hopeful. I’m also starting to feel empowered–I need to figure out what it is that I want, and I’m going to take it. I’m going to take risks and jump in head first, whatever comes in my way. I’ve accomplished a lot these last few semesters, and I’m excited to see what else I’ll do next year.

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